no reason to be nervous,

one of the worse types of nerves are the ones you have but don’t know why, that way they can’t be fixed… so they just sit and grow, and all you want them to do is make them go smaller, that me at the moment, i know it will get worse tomorrow.. it about my art GCSE I have my exam on Tuesday i have planned it to the T but im still nervous,

so i will just carry on pushing it down like when you have too much to carry on a Monday morning and your forcing you bag to shut, blasting out my music and not paying attention to my friends and their dramas (because that just makes everything worse and i don’t want to get into that trap AGAIN

in conclusion i think its something in the air, everyones like this (even my parents) stress is going round more than a bad cold, but in the mean time lets listen to our good beats (what ever they maybe) and hope for a better day

good night!

what’s mine is mine what’s yours is yours

today my friend found out I had a blog.. she doesn’t know what on or even the name. I don’t really want her to know,why would I this is mine, and mine only… she not much of a reader anyway, although she seemed strangely hurt like I had stabbed her in the back , i really hope she gets over it! i cant deal with all the dramas i am sick of those from school I don’t need anymore with my out of school friends aswell!

i don’t understand my friends most of the time they are mostly hard to read i feel like i looking at a book with no words just guessing off their pictures and past,   do he really need to know about my blog it nothing interesting or maybe she’s just hurt by the secrecy of my words, well when she does find this shes know this post I about her… I hope it doesn’t make things worse…she means a lot more than she thinks to me!

you see i don’t know what to say…

i don’t no what to put in this simple box… not that i haven’t reply got any opinon’s or things to say.. its that i don’t no how to say them, i was considering deleting this account but then this could be what ever i make it it could be full of the positives negatives or ever nothing to do with me at all and could just be me ranting about how nice marshmellow’s are the best and how i’m going to find the first unicorn,  but its not yet…. YET…. this year so far starting at what seem to be a low and a bit rubbish but now i just cant get over all the little things like my fav music on while i stare up at the clouds on my ride back from school on the bus and the sun and that smell after the rain and messing about with you friends… who needs money, babylips and yankee candles that isn’t happyness… happyness is what you make of it and what it makes of you! it makes me just want to blast my music out and dance  no matter how tired… no matter how upset or bored… it just makes me happy and now i could ramble on about this for hours but i’m  not going to… im actually going to sleep… so good night, and even though tomorrow monday, be happy and stay positive you really can do anything when your in the right mind set!